I've started a million projects and haven't completed any.
I have come up with several job ideas and things I want to accomplish and haven't gone after any.
I make lists everyday and not much gets crossed off.
I told Brandon about how I was feeling like I wasn't really doing anything in my life right now and he said, "Well, you are being a good mommy to your babies" and that is just what I needed to hear.
The most important thing to me in the world is my family. I want my babies to be happy, healthy and have fun. I have so many things on my bucket list I want to accomplish, but none of those are as important as taking care of my kids. I need to remember this sometimes
I get so caught up looking at what other people are doing on blogs, facebook, twitter, and whatever that I seem to loose touch with reality. The internet is my escape I feel like. I get on it and slip into another world, somebody else's world that feels so much better then mine, and that is so stupid to think. All it takes is for me to go back and look at pictures of my life and it's like a reality check.
I am starting to take a step back and really focus on what's important. I have everything I've ever wanted in life, truly. Beautiful kids, hard working husband, warm house, cute dog, the ocean out my back door....I could go on and on. I can't believe that it is hard for me to feel content! Why?! I never thought that I would have to work on being happy with what I had. So weird, and so selfish.
I have a long way to go, but I am trrryyyyiiiinnnggg. Anyway, that was weird I just started typing and that all came out. I'm going to bed now before I start making confessions or something, yikes.